Black and White

I look back on my childhood as coming from the generation of black and white. TV shows were black and white. Most of the photographs in our family collection were black and white. And the many “White Only,” and “Black Only” signs seen in the marketplace. The latter was not anything I understood.

As a young boy, I would watch my grandpa hitching and handling his mules. Watching him farm row crops, I’d see him stop his two mules mid-row, take off his straw hat, wipe the sweat off his bald head, fill and relight his pipe, and then return to gee-hawing on.

My other grandpa had retired from full-time farmer and leased the land to a sharecropper. I’d sit on the back porch gazing across the pasture toward the tenant house and see the activity of the black family who lived there. It was all a curious mystery to me.

I remember my father talking to me about how he grew up working in the field alongside the black man, as equals. Considering that his parents owned the land maybe it seems a bit idealistic. Regardless, it says something about how his parents raised him. And it also says something about how I and my five siblings were raised to think of other people.

I was 52 when my dad passed, and I never saw him or my mom contradict this ideal in raising their six children. I am grateful to both and hope my children take the same from me.

Yes, there is individual and systemic prejudice, … without a doubt. In ways that I have experienced and quite sure, so have everyone else. But I cannot imagine its roots exist in the color of skin.

We don’t pick the culture we were born into, nor our parents. And there is no justice by holding guilt nor taking the blame for what someone else has done. Justice is rendering to another human being what they are due; a basic dignity.

The only thing that we can positively change about the past is a “letting go” of what is not life-giving and living our lives forward.

Both justice and injustice are sourced in one’s heart and lived out as a choice of one’s (free) will.

We will not resolve social injustices by allowing ourselves to be distracted by media falsification that looks or feels like the truth?

Let us recollect, why do we harm others?

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Gift of a Scarred Soul

Dear B:

I have received your letter and accept retirement from your obligation of service.

When we last met you said, “You’ve done nothing wrong,” and  “it was not our intent to harm you.” Also, your most recent letter writes an appreciation for me doing “everything asked of me.”  Nevertheless, it puzzles me why you continue harm against my person and for the greater community; Especially since Jesus’ teaching on truth, justice, and mercy is clear.

I asked only to be returned to “good standing.” It was, and remains, my invitation of Reconciliation and a way of repairing the harm done. It is the same Sacrament you preach and I am saddened you chose not to accept.

You reason that married, widowed, or divorced people would not accept a cleric who had experienced the same. Holy Wisdom tells me it is these very people who by their own lived experience of marriage in both grace and the cross; possess the necessary compassion. Just think, …compassionate care.

For the entirety of my 60+ years, I’ve held the belief that the institution “at least” strives to resemble its founder and mission. Sadly, in these past ten years, I’ve experienced much of what “NOT” Christ has called his Church to be. And for this, my conscience will not allow me to be silent or complicit.

My passage of tears has gifted greater clarity, trust, and gratitude in God Alone; as the sole source and arbiter of holiness.

And through this dark night, comes deeper gratitude and consent in Divine Presence and Action as the sole formation of my heart, mind, and soul. My sacramental identity and its service to the eucharistic liturgy and Communion of Souls remain.

So, in this contemplation, the Divine Indwelling, calls out:

“Now, Go south to the road,

…the desert road.”

C’est Fini! 

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